mon 16 mar 2009 06:01:01 — witte de withstraat
dammit.
i figured out the main problem --
.
i am not called into existence by my necessity.
my existence causes necessity.
dammit!
somehow i wish it were the other way round -- that i would only exist to the extent i was necessary. and that it would be so for all of us too. in fact i've spent much of my life living and believing as if we only earn our existence by way of our being needed. now i realize that's not true. it's not like someone says "i need three more brown-haired humans with good math skills, get to work and make me some". we just happen whether we're needed or not.
this is why we have the problem being "socialists" wanting to provide for the social, without any "enterprise" scheme for who exists, how many, or why.
unless we're god i mean. if you're god, it's different.