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17 apr 14  software update mayhem

06 apr 14  one and then another

04 apr 14  who traitors are

30 mar 14  girth

19 mar 14  calm down things

13 mar 14  out with george

13 mar 14  they fired pam

19 feb 14  waarom ik van amsterdam houd

05 feb 14  outside of time where are you going

02 feb 14  went to haarlem and at new york pizza

02 feb 14  people i knew who died

30 jan 14  morality and politics

29 jan 14  dream of feynman's glasses

28 jan 14  it's a natural condition of non coercion

26 jan 14  nantko tree

19 jan 14  vrankrijk first time

18 jan 14  amstergasm.com

14 jan 14  laptop quiet

11 jan 14  a mother with shelter problem

03 jan 14  reading journal

29 dec 13  using law to persecute minorities

28 dec 13  section 377

27 dec 13  must go thru dark place but there's some light

27 dec 13  pleading

27 dec 13  pope francis

22 dec 13  nicole left, aaron visited

10 dec 13  'a bit of a fine point'

10 dec 13  my only problem with socialism is government

08 dec 13  nonviolence as end as well as means

04 dec 13  why not lie to a child

01 dec 13  mind writing a joke while dreaming

01 dec 13  i went to münchen

12 nov 13  far above cayuga's waters

12 nov 13  proton vs angel

28 oct 13  kissing a woman's hand

25 oct 13  gooey

21 oct 13  write your own tax budget

21 oct 13  pro-science anti-science

04 oct 13  ordered a handycam

30 sep 13  a hobby: make language

30 sep 13  went out three nights in a row

23 sep 13  fine line messaging

27 aug 13  beyond meaningless

17 aug 13  messages from 'dave'

13 aug 13  bread faster maybe

03 aug 13  being careful of what to believe

01 aug 13  philosophy is fashion

30 jul 13  film 'privacy is over' on youtube

23 jul 13  too warm for amsterdam

21 jul 13  more ideas for better editor

20 jul 13  finished anro

20 jul 13  anger and fear drawing bad luck

01 jul 13  majoritarianism?

25 jun 13  the concealment

23 jun 13  love, life, death etc

16 jun 13  neua yang nam chim

16 jun 13  virtues of amsterdam, new perspective

15 jun 13  weird cooking

11 jun 13  public interest

06 jun 13  bread 4

04 jun 13  manning on trial

04 jun 13  office space in NL 27% empty

04 jun 13  zurna

02 jun 13  a cow in pool

29 may 13  why did lincoln want to preserve it anyway?

28 may 13  a pill

27 may 13  crazy firing brain

19 may 13  i made bread

18 may 13  met a descendant of van niftrik

05 may 13  'shut up'

05 may 13  afternoon of gifts

02 may 13  gail taibbi

01 may 13  bangladesh building collapse

01 may 13  prejudice is uninformative

25 apr 13  a train

19 apr 13  slavery of clay

16 apr 13  bombings in boston

15 apr 13  hurting someone by not being private

08 apr 13  ella visited

06 apr 13  anxiety dreams about filmmaking

03 apr 13  discorporeal entities

02 apr 13  got interviewed by julia

15 mar 13  conspiracy theories are getting religious

08 mar 13  two things about childhood

07 mar 13  going to vienna tomorrow

07 mar 13  youtube and nobility

04 mar 13  warmer

23 feb 13  forgiveness volunteers

22 feb 13  contrarian views of specific wars

06 feb 13  north korean fantasy vid of space travel and destruction

03 feb 13  minimum ecosystem

03 feb 13  nantko's funeral

01 feb 13  meaning

31 jan 13  dinner at 'amarcord'

27 jan 13  not remembering people

25 jan 13  n fly is no more

20 jan 13  unbelievably advanced technology

19 jan 13  too many subscribers

16 jan 13  'extraordinary'

09 jan 13  keyframes: ALL

08 jan 13  'walk me through it'

08 jan 13  slow uploads

07 jan 13  anarchy test

06 jan 13  a file got damaged

02 jan 13  modern language

01 jan 13  exporting interview

30 dec 12  captivity

29 dec 12  tests at zest

26 dec 12  wfc3 told me about uncertainty

26 dec 12  processing old ntsc

26 dec 12  mlp fim

25 dec 12  stuff i thought everybody's mom taught them

25 dec 12  mouse fear

24 dec 12  i went out in the daylight

21 dec 12  malala just behind obama

20 dec 12  dinner with ilse and chris

18 dec 12  2000 empty houses in centrum

12 dec 12  north korea launches

10 dec 12  finished 'vienna escapes'

06 dec 12  editing software better

03 dec 12  film as perfume

01 dec 12  finished interview log

30 nov 12  kinda took thursday off

29 nov 12  almonds

28 nov 12  needless brain surgery

27 nov 12  pani visits

26 nov 12  the feeling of i can't help

25 nov 12  thanksgiving dinner at tong

25 nov 12  anro video file sorting

22 nov 12  i can't remember everything

22 nov 12  tom & courtney came

20 nov 12  working on thanksgiving

19 nov 12  dreamed of being in love

18 nov 12  drones in america

06 nov 12  remarks on secession

30 oct 12  a great storm and vitriol

26 oct 12  one reason i like whisperers

24 oct 12  all my fragile

20 oct 12  color grading macros for NLE

16 oct 12  anonymity madness

11 oct 12  malala yousafzai has been shot

10 oct 12  jude is dead

03 oct 12  cameras lately

03 oct 12  met heidi

22 sep 12  i took a day off yay

16 sep 12  a lot of socializing

11 sep 12  saw jim ball

02 sep 12  apophenia

02 sep 12  tutu damn

28 aug 12  sync drift weirdness in fcp

23 aug 12  fcp export mystery

21 aug 12  ended up at candela

21 aug 12  misleading news headlines

18 aug 12  drinking by multatuli

12 aug 12  wyborowa's gone

30 jul 12  sent out some invoices

27 jul 12  30000 lines a day?

20 jul 12  syria situation

18 jul 12  getting close to the edge with facebook

13 jul 12  went to peenemünde

07 jul 12  buma stemra: i don't trust em

07 jul 12  organization > organism

05 jul 12  buma stemra

05 jul 12  apollo hate

04 jul 12  higgs boson

02 jul 12  no future in art

02 jul 12  zie me staan: people like it

02 jul 12  filmed interview

14 jun 12  might as well be

07 jun 12  einstein isn't

05 jun 12  love is less than three

31 may 12  i heard a horn

26 may 12  zms progress

16 may 12  'race is insubstantial'

13 may 12  soulfly

06 may 12  something else i should write, dammit

06 may 12  emergence and anarchy

30 apr 12  back from paris shoot

22 apr 12  train collision

15 apr 12  i hate time zones. got utc clock in corner.

15 apr 12  unproductive

09 apr 12  saturday night went to chico's

07 apr 12  got new web design working

04 apr 12  me and youtube

04 apr 12  will redesign site

03 apr 12  creepy old man

02 apr 12  things i've been doing

15 feb 12  riding horses is weird

06 feb 12  four things i noticed

06 feb 12  started 'gallus gallus'

06 feb 12  dance

02 feb 12  spurous uploads

29 jan 12  illicit

22 jan 12  finished sound play

18 jan 12  the object you're looking at is inscribed with your observation

09 jan 12  lost ear

08 jan 12  ptolemy 3x

08 jan 12  should just write it for fun

07 jan 12  on the use of myth in politics, and consequences thereof

04 jan 12  now 9 years in ams

03 jan 12  got back to ams

01 jan 12  some houses are tiled

30 dec 11  wanting is not the same as thinking you deserve

30 dec 11  man in fuzzy boots

28 dec 11  postigo do carvao

28 dec 11  bacalhao

26 dec 11  dog into flock

25 dec 11  i hope i made his week

25 dec 11  people interesting to look at

25 dec 11  cormorants

24 dec 11  got to porto

21 dec 11  leaving friday for 10 days

18 dec 11  dream gabo s

16 dec 11  mammoth carcasses

12 dec 11  dinner in weesp

07 dec 11  tribal rituals without lies?

06 dec 11  went to an opera

03 dec 11  academia de tango, and other curiosities

12 nov 11  nuclear power sucks, just like it sucked in 1978

04 nov 11  paradox of commune

29 oct 11  williston north dakota has jobs

26 oct 11  dylan visited

13 oct 11  free market versus crime

13 oct 11  all the rebellions are against one thing

12 oct 11  self-organizing properties of universe

12 oct 11  alcohol does to you what you think it will?

12 oct 11  occupy movement

10 oct 11  it's windy

01 oct 11  disappointing 'neighbors'

19 sep 11  my youtube stars

18 sep 11  nun story

18 sep 11  saw a rainbow

17 sep 11  what kind of socialism

12 sep 11  mine's bigger, i told her

12 sep 11  traitjo dead

12 sep 11  sis thought it was unkind of me

10 sep 11  am i crazy or are they?

09 sep 11  'credible but unconfirmed' threat

09 sep 11  saw gabriel

02 sep 11  venn diagrams

01 sep 11  journal problems!

01 sep 11  more stuff i remember

30 aug 11  semantic slide in biz speak

26 aug 11  i've time-travelled to the wrong future

19 aug 11  a new brain-eating amoeba

18 aug 11  vreemdelingendetentie vreselijker

04 aug 11  more copywriting guidlines

18 jul 11  sucked stuff on sunday

15 jul 11  takes a lot of brain energy

14 jul 11  copywriting guidelines

11 jul 11  a distressed kitten

03 jul 11  whisper community

30 jun 11  dinner w n fly et al

24 jun 11  rail grinders tonight

22 jun 11  went to haarlem

20 jun 11  a whitish lion wanted to get in

18 jun 11  i went out friday and saw some nice people.

16 jun 11  not playing the fear game

16 jun 11  ewa's mosaic done, gone to poland

16 jun 11  cultural tensions, not

07 jun 11  lately

24 may 11  trouble with nations in the house

18 may 11  ketelaar trip

14 may 11  making city

11 may 11  'no nature, no nurse'

02 may 11  americans killed bin laden

28 apr 11  i hear thunder

23 apr 11  revolts panarabic

22 apr 11  apple knows where you are

16 apr 11  salute the digits

15 apr 11  seeminly subtle morality thing

13 apr 11  trees have flowers

12 apr 11  veil outlawed in france

12 apr 11  went to kambiz demo

08 apr 11  kambiz roustayi was his name

07 apr 11  US govt facing shutdown over budget quarrel

06 apr 11  self-immolator on the dam

02 apr 11  re porn leaks

26 mar 11  lebanese dinner

24 mar 11  walked around st michel area

23 mar 11  dermo sceaux

21 mar 11  guessing trigger

21 mar 11  bad skin

20 mar 11  moon big

19 mar 11  anisimowicz at van gogh

17 mar 11  cosmic forces

16 mar 11  bones in park

15 mar 11  friendship is not lovership minus

13 mar 11  things that fall from the sky

12 mar 11  partial meltdown at japanese nuclear plant

12 mar 11  japan moved

09 mar 11  worked on the menu kaart

09 mar 11  louis vuitton wants 5000

25 feb 11  friend: i hope you get shot

24 feb 11  agents

23 feb 11  libyan fighter pilots in malta

21 feb 11  more revolutions

20 feb 11  ranjit edward story

13 feb 11  went to chico's bar again

13 feb 11  first dawn birds

05 feb 11  egypt revolution

18 dec 10  lipstick on glass

16 dec 10  missed moonaddict

14 dec 10  de waag is sinking

14 dec 10  pani went to india

12 dec 10  without bounce

08 dec 10  assange

05 dec 10  my film page doesn't work in safari any more

02 dec 10  NL govt kills marijuana tourism

30 nov 10  my brother gave me my old music

25 nov 10  semi lucid dreaming

25 nov 10  it's thanksgiving day again

24 nov 10  french lady locked in bathroom

15 nov 10  we have too much alarm

13 nov 10  rietveld students to exhibit at brakke grond

07 nov 10  bought a new computer.

06 nov 10  i started painting again today.

05 nov 10  woman hit by piece of scaffold

04 nov 10  tram trouble tuesday

30 oct 10  today demonstrations

29 oct 10  you and spike lee

23 oct 10  piece of paper to throw away

23 oct 10  largo della zecca, genova

23 oct 10  returned the found phone

22 oct 10  rumor that unrelated cohabitation would be forbidden

20 oct 10  about that news ribbon idea

20 oct 10  bedroom

20 oct 10  'change is good' is silly

20 oct 10  saw bazek / new neighbor / news ribbon wanted

18 oct 10  not flirt

15 oct 10  anne frank's neighbor tree blew down after all

15 oct 10  debt = slavery

14 oct 10  went out

10 oct 10  local jeweler murdered thursday

10 oct 10  red sludge in hungary

06 oct 10  reality checkers

05 oct 10  dreamed of police violence

05 oct 10  met moonaddict at rock supplies

02 oct 10  more humane violence

30 sep 10  gliese planet

27 sep 10  filmed w henryk

24 sep 10  saw 'a bout de souffle'

24 sep 10  lighting guy for death speech

22 sep 10  equinox

22 sep 10  haven't been writing enough!

05 sep 10  (no topic)

28 aug 10  hemelwater

21 aug 10  very starry

19 aug 10  20% of americans think obama is muslim

13 aug 10  heatwave and wildfires in russia

09 aug 10  you're released

29 jul 10  been trying to get flash vids to play

21 jul 10  a penny dropped won't swerve to miss you

20 jul 10  welsh city councillor in trouble

18 jul 10  somebody bought the choc

11 jul 10  people in orange shirts are comforting each other

28 jun 10  ams population grew

26 jun 10  separation of church and state not working out

21 jun 10  pani ani is here

21 jun 10  summer solstice

13 jun 10  'nature is with me on this point'

09 jun 10  i didn't know wilders was part indo

07 jun 10  more thoughts on the end of privacy

06 jun 10  this is where i came in

03 jun 10  dreamed of strippenkaarten

30 may 10  christian anarchists, oppenheimer, a dream of painting

18 may 10  four year old said there are cameras

16 may 10  intense dream with rice

12 may 10  chronicle of trip to rome

05 may 10  walked to colosseum

04 may 10  we got to roma

04 may 10  test

24 apr 10  going on a 'road trip'

19 apr 10  saw a jet

18 apr 10  no streaks in sky

16 apr 10  iceland's volcano sprays ash over europe

15 apr 10  petals

08 apr 10  nicolette kluijver posed in playboy

31 mar 10  saw 'black snake moan'

30 mar 10  inschrijving

27 mar 10  ime1

20 mar 10  started filming "ime1"

13 mar 10  sudden

12 mar 10  rebrand the brand

04 mar 10  i voted for the first time in amsterdam

24 feb 10  even more senseless english loanwords

24 feb 10  update on saturday's metrobotsing

24 feb 10  somebody's got an A and an M

21 feb 10  helped feed swans, ducks, meerhoenen, gulls and geese

21 feb 10  metro collision under amsterdam

20 feb 10  people speak language, not html

18 feb 10  duco stadig didn't get that much money

16 feb 10  red cross: too much amsterdam loneliness

15 feb 10  treinbotsing in belgië

15 feb 10  i'm being unfair

12 feb 10  i dreamed of strange praise

10 feb 10  talked about movies with djox and tommy

05 feb 10  swans in trouble

02 feb 10  apt inspection

30 jan 10  mislukking

22 jan 10  police wait for pants

22 jan 10  twice as many requests for welfare

21 jan 10  did two interviews

14 jan 10  48 jarige vrouw vriest dood in purmerend

14 jan 10  shower is in

12 jan 10  miep gies is dead.

11 jan 10  made 30s from ptm2

09 jan 10  ex contractor is dead

09 jan 10  pentagon & henryk

06 jan 10  be careful skating

06 jan 10  met marina

04 jan 10  some things i should write about

04 jan 10  saw marcin's film

26 dec 09  impressions of michael tsarion

24 dec 09  keizer en georg

20 dec 09  got back from sceaux

10 dec 09  trying to make smaller rejection street

09 dec 09  recent brilliant quotes from myself

07 dec 09  finished postwar.nl

05 dec 09  revising postwar.nl

05 dec 09  school

02 dec 09  the chalice with the palace

02 dec 09  buzz marketing via dreams

02 dec 09  the dark time is here

01 dec 09  silence

29 nov 09  "box"

27 nov 09  thanksgiving

25 nov 09  the pounding

25 nov 09  lots of details

19 nov 09  boekenstijn out

15 nov 09  big explosions in ulyanovsk

10 nov 09  deurwaarder business again

10 nov 09  which monkey?

09 nov 09  stabbings in halvemaansteeg

08 nov 09  there's no berlin wall

06 nov 09  "shovel"

04 nov 09  cassa rosso cleared

02 nov 09  encountering my beastly nature

02 nov 09  not sure about me

25 oct 09  djoxie's birthday

24 oct 09  accident outside our house

24 oct 09  choosing your eternity

19 oct 09  and what's all this about a belastingparadijs?

19 oct 09  dream date unprepared for a long walk

19 oct 09  whether happiness is important

11 oct 09  priorities in language

10 oct 09  working on memories

08 oct 09  kraken verbieden?

06 oct 09  let them learn to be their own peacemakers

05 oct 09  still alice

03 oct 09  wind, fever

03 oct 09  ass crew

02 oct 09  figs and dates

25 sep 09  i was mean

25 sep 09  qualifies as betutteling

23 sep 09  nzlijn perps can't remember

21 sep 09  got home around four

09 sep 09  "billenprikker" strikes twice in de pijp

02 sep 09  that wasn't very nice

01 sep 09  my patience has corners!

28 aug 09  hey twelve year old me

27 aug 09  2050: 1 of 3 people lives in squatter town

23 aug 09  not knowing what knowing is

20 aug 09  scared

11 aug 09  the last laws

09 aug 09  heard from pani ani

08 aug 09  fleeing from desire

08 aug 09  nothing against lithouanians

31 jul 09  cheese from the church of love

29 jul 09  i love my laughing dad

20 jul 09  40 years ago moonwalk

15 jul 09  walked home from casablanca

13 jul 09  brackets

13 jul 09  construction postponed

10 jul 09  turmoil over girl n

09 jul 09  taxi mischief in Lplein finally gets news

08 jul 09  construction "begins"

06 jul 09  a complex swirl of emotion

03 jul 09  "you were just being collins"

28 jun 09  what you want

26 jun 09  hm

24 jun 09  it's long

21 jun 09  getting a guest

19 jun 09  grumpy w jealousies and imagined betrayals

16 jun 09  birds are on at circa 04.23

13 jun 09  another accidental night out

12 jun 09  anne frank turns 80

11 jun 09  strange w no tv

10 jun 09  rode draad disappearing

10 jun 09  dawn happens now

08 jun 09  unexplained

07 jun 09  went up

01 jun 09  co2 emissions reduce

27 may 09  the weather explained

26 may 09  molya

14 may 09  nine story leap

07 may 09  saw docu over gerrit gunnink

05 may 09  das zimmer ist groß as all hell

05 may 09  was uitgenodigt

04 may 09  the egomania of suicide

03 may 09  gisteravond feest

30 apr 09  dreams of being lost

30 apr 09  car crash by queen

27 apr 09  birth and death

27 apr 09  swine flu spectacular

24 apr 09  a man ran backwards in circles under a ladder

23 apr 09  spurious "device removal"

17 apr 09  watched a film by theo van gogh

13 apr 09  between breadbox and cellar vanishes humanity

07 apr 09  saw some ballet

31 mar 09  strangely impatient

28 mar 09  shoes

27 mar 09  wish i could do something like tac again

23 mar 09  had some good dreams

20 mar 09  covering the coverer?

18 mar 09  went to rembrandtpark

16 mar 09  dammit.

16 mar 09  5.15u

14 mar 09  terrorists to bomb ikea not

07 mar 09  collapse of köln city archive

06 mar 09  would make a nice movie

04 mar 09  death threats for smoking bar owners

02 mar 09  life glimpses in telegraaf

02 mar 09  bitterballen sales up 14%

02 mar 09  pvv doing just great

02 mar 09  dead dagastan "bekende"

01 mar 09  vanunu wants no nobel

01 mar 09  why still here

26 feb 09  a plane crashed near the a9

22 feb 09  firemen burn houses in slotermeer

21 feb 09  what moved that gravestone

21 feb 09  who's making money: polish "social lenders"

19 feb 09  budgets slashed again

18 feb 09  a gravestone moves 1 meter in friesland

13 feb 09  wilders gets famous

12 feb 09  satellites collide over siberia

12 feb 09  furor over whether we should abuse poles

12 feb 09  wilders to attempt UK invasion

12 feb 09  monday's finished, it's thursday now

07 feb 09  bush fires in s e australia

06 feb 09  micky's gone

06 feb 09  more doorway culture

06 feb 09  weird auditory

05 feb 09  sanity or solitude

04 feb 09  balkenende gets yelled at

04 feb 09  weather strange

03 feb 09  semantic slide

01 feb 09  les parapluies de cherbourg

01 feb 09  tiny snow

31 jan 09  many australians are still alive

27 jan 09  car in the church roof

27 jan 09  a word about a week

27 jan 09  collins: not worthy of belgian beer

27 jan 09  green and gray = may

26 jan 09  i'm in charge of the fish

25 jan 09  we must all carry the music of the dead

23 jan 09  oh i forgot

23 jan 09  childcare murder in vlanders

22 jan 09  tong ah is pretty damn good

22 jan 09  revising

19 jan 09  miepfeest

17 jan 09  gaza versus nantucket

15 jan 09  heating the metro with cocoa

12 jan 09  didn't enjoy cow

10 jan 09  talkers versus chanters

10 jan 09  glad to have been dreaming

08 jan 09  too cold in hannover, try africa

07 jan 09  an ethnic joke

06 jan 09  gas shortages and other trouble

06 jan 09  cultural survival becoming oppression

06 jan 09  "sinful" convolution

05 jan 09  possibility of snowman

05 jan 09  guess i'll get sick too

03 jan 09  things i didn't do before

01 jan 09  wishing for the why

01 jan 09  only six firework injuries in ams

01 jan 09  2009: participatory intelligence

30 dec 08  will hide again

25 dec 08  spooky affliction

23 dec 08  taking back anarchy, again again

23 dec 08  geur-illa

23 dec 08  three bass is a long gone inn

23 dec 08  dance film anarchy sadness death and fishing

22 dec 08  whiteout christmas

22 dec 08  yay

22 dec 08  chocolate to pilot

22 dec 08  misadventures in language learning

21 dec 08  adventures in timesinking

19 dec 08  mouse problem

19 dec 08  not a very good brainstormer

16 dec 08  oppervlakte / bevolking NL vs maine

16 dec 08  o krap!

15 dec 08  i'm a bit stunned

15 dec 08  vanunu has a web site

15 dec 08  bush ducks shoe

15 dec 08  practicing english

11 dec 08  administration whew

11 dec 08  cafe eijlders and its origins

09 dec 08  pfdm v04 is done

05 dec 08  amanda fox is no more

03 dec 08  blueprint

01 dec 08  made some things

29 nov 08  finished 2 short films

28 nov 08  finished a short play

27 nov 08  thanks giving

26 nov 08  a play in one act i hope

20 nov 08  he's ok

20 nov 08  that beats all

20 nov 08  well

19 nov 08  preliminary thoughts on the new red stuff

19 nov 08  adobe needs to bite me

19 nov 08  shooters need to forget it's digital

19 nov 08  i missed another party

18 nov 08  took a night off

13 nov 08  if i ever see a mushmulla

13 nov 08  messages that mean something else

11 nov 08  got new mobieltje

08 nov 08  pauw, eylders, cave, taxi rij

05 nov 08  it's been foggy

03 nov 08  back in ams

02 nov 08  flying back to ams

02 nov 08  i'm leaving

01 nov 08  jab and emax

31 oct 08  started a new bank account

31 oct 08  checked out

28 oct 08  made changes to pfdm

25 oct 08  my beloved took me to frank's

25 oct 08  nobody believes me about lighting

23 oct 08  linked in

23 oct 08  checking picture frames

22 oct 08  brief addendum to "notes of a fool"

21 oct 08  back at hotel

20 oct 08  ended up at nietsche's

20 oct 08  enjoyed seeing the old boys

19 oct 08  allen street hardware

18 oct 08  dinner at ddk

17 oct 08  fly to buffalo

16 oct 08  fire dept visits

15 oct 08  end of history

15 oct 08  pani filmed it

15 oct 08  indoors since saturday

10 oct 08  sharks virgin births

09 oct 08  will make side trip to buffalo NY

08 oct 08  misc freefloating ideas

05 oct 08  passing manchester marina

04 oct 08  finished filming hif8

04 oct 08  going to visit my sibs

29 sep 08  a pesky flash of greed, a wave of turmoil

26 sep 08  how'd you get on the watch list?

20 sep 08  went to my niece's wedding, then to a birthday party

20 sep 08  between two projects

14 sep 08  tv commercials in usa

12 sep 08  jane's addiction on the pa

09 sep 08  legal breakfast

07 sep 08  flight

07 sep 08  travelling again

06 sep 08  one more tournedos before i gos

04 sep 08  listening to michael berk

03 sep 08  they should stop blaming the consumer

03 sep 08  carol ann

03 sep 08  more bad news for anarchists

22 aug 08  don't take me as evil!

22 aug 08  other things that have been happening

22 aug 08  justices as mad grammars

21 aug 08  i had a bad dream

20 aug 08  what i don't like about originality

09 aug 08  russia invading georgia

09 aug 08  texas and tibet to merge

01 aug 08  why the blue guy was wrong

26 jul 08  a plague of cute things

25 jul 08  christiane amanpour's forehead

24 jul 08  was crazy eva really a target of a bing crosby assassination plot?

22 jul 08  stages of freedom

14 jul 08  banks getting bailed out

12 jul 08  sweet smell

05 jul 08  beware of friday the 4th

05 jul 08  always refreshing and crunchy too

05 jul 08  tracking a flock of minigigs

28 jun 08  made a movie for my beloved

27 jun 08  marinka's party

27 jun 08  whether i had drowned

23 jun 08  speed-demanding help

22 jun 08  everyone had a tv

21 jun 08  dalai lama avoids "is"

18 jun 08  kucinich's thing

15 jun 08  my café life is not at full power

14 jun 08  quakes, floods, football

06 jun 08  baz is great, baz is good

05 jun 08  how i find out what happens in my street

05 jun 08  voordelen van het leven in amsterdam

03 jun 08  another old wwii bomb found

31 may 08  um ...

31 may 08  uh

31 may 08  mutating dutch

30 may 08  slow yellow ocelot

26 may 08  returning to amsterdam

25 may 08  m is for love

24 may 08  hanging out

23 may 08  never o'clock

23 may 08  kawa z mlekiem

23 may 08  at the wedding

22 may 08  i like the kitchen

21 may 08  my first trip to poland

20 may 08  inventions i want

19 may 08  talking sloppy

18 may 08  my ancestors are back!

17 may 08  febo founder finished

17 may 08  lekker thuis

17 may 08  ret ams

16 may 08  strange mail shit

16 may 08  zac efron

14 may 08  trouble using biz files

14 may 08  failure is not an omelette

13 may 08  earthquake and green hat

13 may 08  semi connected

11 may 08  do not foul

10 may 08  visiting family

10 may 08  flintstones repeating backgrounds

09 may 08  discommunication

07 may 08  permanent resident

07 may 08  booboo finished

30 apr 08  gracie the cat is dead

28 apr 08  starcrossed

27 apr 08  bezet

27 apr 08  i was enrolled in a special boarding school

25 apr 08  a good day

23 apr 08  arguing for declaration

22 apr 08  getting out of town for queen's day

21 apr 08  "a perfect new york outcome"

19 apr 08  filmed around jk's place

13 apr 08  alan b shephard

13 apr 08  had a good time

12 apr 08  dust clouds

10 apr 08  mdef

08 apr 08  belgian baker's bad luck

08 apr 08  metro derailment yesterday at centraal

08 apr 08  eggs with the two g's

06 apr 08  NZETORN

06 apr 08  another sushi evening

05 apr 08  tiger eats man, verdonk gets opinion zetels

03 apr 08  no pink houses

01 apr 08  pyromaan

31 mar 08  reviews of booboo agogo 04

30 mar 08  "summer time"

29 mar 08  disconcertingly frank

27 mar 08  where's miep

24 mar 08  muslim broadcaster might help wilders out

24 mar 08  new translations

23 mar 08  walking in the snow in haarlem

23 mar 08  demo'tje

22 mar 08  saw 8 police trucks

20 mar 08  chicha is okay, nicely scarred

20 mar 08  my devout

20 mar 08  uitsmijters

20 mar 08  just got home

19 mar 08  sound of

18 mar 08  booboo agogo

16 mar 08  new translations

15 mar 08  chicha hurt

14 mar 08  dawn bird songs

13 mar 08  on my way to big urbanism discussion

13 mar 08  banning older cars

13 mar 08  more big wind

10 mar 08  thai coon?

10 mar 08  maybe they're right

10 mar 08  "golden pauw", glasbak, ophelia, van meene

09 mar 08  geert wilders' phone number?

08 mar 08  another orphaned concept: multiculture

07 mar 08  thought of someone and he appeared on a scooter

05 mar 08  oh crikey gimme some homosapiens

01 mar 08  heard thunder

29 feb 08  "sterkte" sez verdonk

28 feb 08  getting things wrong

28 feb 08  what i would have missed if i were 18 now

28 feb 08  protolinguistics and paleogenetics

28 feb 08  finished product film

24 feb 08  again

24 feb 08  going to monnikendam

23 feb 08  saw ella

22 feb 08  slogan on railroad bridge near haarlemmerplein

21 feb 08  an old painting at burger king, and a pigeon

20 feb 08  a friend who thought i was a fugitive

20 feb 08  not starving

19 feb 08  proposed systems of taxation

19 feb 08  what i see when i'm not complaining

17 feb 08  electronic whining as a placeholder for ethnic cleansing

17 feb 08  gelatinous cat

17 feb 08  "relativeren"

17 feb 08  paine rosy re america, 1790

17 feb 08  kosovars waving american flags

16 feb 08  guest of anne frank

13 feb 08  to rhenen and back.

13 feb 08  waiting for little bombs that didn't explode

11 feb 08  fungus net rules world

11 feb 08  we saw isaura

10 feb 08  about witte

10 feb 08  ex-maharishi

10 feb 08  transport biz: what boerka problem?

10 feb 08  was feest

09 feb 08  jarig

04 feb 08  ik was mijn groene sjaal bijna kwijt

04 feb 08  the hello lady

03 feb 08  returned ams

02 feb 08  a day late

01 feb 08  spritzed with dignity

30 jan 08  i love

29 jan 08  you guys's nights

27 jan 08  my film convinced

26 jan 08  cacti

26 jan 08  washcloth

25 jan 08  threw a meeting

21 jan 08  travelling is boring

21 jan 08  going to america again

18 jan 08  before going

15 jan 08  cleaning my desk off

15 jan 08  got more cimbalom

14 jan 08  toch niet?

14 jan 08  it's illegal to ridicule geert wilders?

12 jan 08  soundalikes

08 jan 08  torn up station

07 jan 08  truth wants a volcano

05 jan 08  upload and scale

03 jan 08  lustrum

03 jan 08  my witty aphorism of the week

01 jan 08  rewriting gd

01 jan 08  gunpowder

31 dec 07  amateur showgirls on hand-cranked elevator

31 dec 07  onno

29 dec 07  like i said

28 dec 07  benazir bhutto murdered

27 dec 07  whither the wheat

27 dec 07  fever

23 dec 07  third man made twice

23 dec 07  content control

21 dec 07  bad news gancho

21 dec 07  klopka / the trap

21 dec 07  naan

21 dec 07  soundgarden

20 dec 07  (no topic)

19 dec 07  misc notes from wednesday

18 dec 07  afgevallen

16 dec 07  saw micheline and wim

14 dec 07  tjonge

13 dec 07  influencing not doing

13 dec 07  my last affair, again

12 dec 07  i helped cook.

08 dec 07  sent a pile of facturen

08 dec 07  connected again

05 dec 07  moved the plants

03 dec 07  was at hg

02 dec 07  ok i moved

30 nov 07  last night on raamgracht

23 nov 07  opzeggingen en aanwijzigingen and stuff

20 nov 07  also, storage

20 nov 07  end-stage workflow automation needed

19 nov 07  moving soon, not to bangladesh

19 nov 07  champagne rationing

04 nov 07  a cool woman with fire

28 oct 07  opera

28 oct 07  vreselijk druk

07 oct 07  got home

30 sep 07  bored in jazztown

29 sep 07  a night out

18 sep 07  going to boston

14 sep 07  devil's airline

14 sep 07  caitlin upton

12 sep 07  democracy redefined

11 sep 07  dwellings, asphalt and police

10 sep 07  people are shockingly nice to me

09 sep 07  i sound like a commie

09 sep 07  about rent control

09 sep 07  reluctant to buy housing

09 sep 07  sheesh now i'm on myspace too?

06 sep 07  spoedklusje

06 sep 07  verhagen wants no contact with violent folks

04 sep 07  went to zandvoort

31 aug 07  cost of grain and glass

30 aug 07  a belle is necessary

29 aug 07  continuity error

28 aug 07  a man is singing with bells

26 aug 07  schemering

25 aug 07  confused man climbing on palace

20 aug 07  complaining

20 aug 07  started "ghostly disturbed"

17 aug 07  notions to be amplified in "n fool"

16 aug 07  antonioni died a couple weeks ago

16 aug 07  went to blauw, went to cave

12 aug 07  the man who says ow

12 aug 07  started raining

12 aug 07  and another thing. the bells.

12 aug 07  how to walk

12 aug 07  thoughts incited by a trip to the appie

11 aug 07  reworked postwar site

09 aug 07  ever so slightly productive

07 aug 07  modern life is

07 aug 07  re-built

26 jul 07  spirit flesh expression

23 jul 07  butch memorial

21 jul 07  had a nice evening in allston

20 jul 07  going to boston

06 jul 07  dreamed of going to vegas with my mom

30 jun 07  money is blood

29 jun 07  ajw

16 jun 07  things that happened

15 jun 07  crackable?

12 jun 07  saw isis at paradiso

06 jun 07  ghostly disturbed

31 may 07  went to munich

10 may 07  a week without war

04 may 07  nell bryden at mulligan's

30 apr 07  more about language

20 apr 07  dream drawing a horse

14 apr 07  movies on tv

07 apr 07  means

04 apr 07  electric violin and wheelchair

01 apr 07  forbidden to hang around

25 mar 07  population control

25 mar 07  more literal

18 mar 07  frequency

18 mar 07  evil spirits

16 mar 07  shwa-zucht

11 mar 07  saw jab in paris

09 mar 07  silence of image

05 mar 07  geography, fashion, obsolescence

03 mar 07  lunar eclipse

27 feb 07  battle w waantrouw

24 feb 07  was tourist in utrecht

23 feb 07  art is bullshit

18 feb 07  world time

17 feb 07  power oozing

16 feb 07  synopsis what's missing

11 feb 07  dreamed of a little clock

10 feb 07  went out

06 feb 07  a better language

31 jan 07  dreaming of incompetence

15 aug 06  returned from pomorie

27 jul 06  koeler

27 jul 06  het schandaal

25 jul 06  pessimism

10 jul 06  trouble concentrating

02 jul 06  what's going on

29 jul 05  compile journal

24 jul 05  people are insane

01 may 05  quiet

27 jun 04  another trip to paris

02 apr 04  got back from usa

25 feb 04  nuon weirdness

24 feb 04  moved to raamgracht

17 dec 03  everything i know

31 aug 03  walking to de aker

12 jul 03  language is inadequate

10 jun 03  loneliness

13 may 03  metjes

19 apr 03  trip to paris

11 apr 03  went to kvk last month

11 apr 03  time, mind, size of now

27 mar 03  on radiating

13 feb 03  growing up reasonable

04 feb 03  snowball fight

23 jan 03  messages from friends

23 jan 03  what happened to your bird

17 jan 03  gig for hg / berlage

12 jan 03  first days living in ams

03 jan 03  made it to holland alive

30 jun 02  my friends listened

29 jun 02  turning out badly

22 jun 02  dream parking, violence, cat

20 jun 02  finished chautauqua movie

24 may 02  post-relationship

27 jul 01  misc

22 mar 01  bad things

02 mar 01  the "cyderwinder" episode

02 mar 01  going through little notebooks

23 feb 01  more dreams about driving

16 nov 00  consequences of nonviolence

24 oct 00  modern grumpy

27 may 00  personal anarchy

08 apr 00  bwoop? bwoop?

01 dec 99  cold apartment

10 oct 99  dive smokin

08 oct 99  anything else joey

09 aug 99  returned from chautauqua

16 jul 99  birthday at four seasons

25 jun 99  finished rough cut

22 jun 99  walking around allston w aj

20 jun 99  found a receipt

17 jun 99  no not really

06 may 99  editing RS

30 jan 99  moving out

19 jan 99  sudden amsterdam

06 dec 98  no shoot today

11 may 98  truth makes youth

13 nov 97  time off

13 jun 97  crossroads again

20 jan 97  malibu jesus

20 jan 97  trip to LA

15 dec 96  human companionship

15 sep 96  notes

22 aug 96  infidelity & wood splinters

14 jul 96  to simulate myth

16 oct 95  dream misadventures

22 jan 95  seeing a doctor

20 nov 94  my mother died

29 oct 94  what virtual reality is

01 oct 94  watching mtv at age 36

22 jul 94  moving back

27 nov 93  watching tv

22 oct 93  new blanket

02 jun 93  corpuscularity

21 apr 93  forms of things

21 apr 93  belief in dichotomy of matter & spirit

19 jan 93  parallel

18 nov 92  aftereffects beta testing

18 sep 92  notes for "egg"

06 sep 92  some visitors

11 aug 92  got job offer



trip to paris

in an email to my brother:

>>have you ever had weird stuff happen that makes you wonder if you're nuts? my little semi-trist with pani has had its surreal moments.

the day after pani arrived in amsterdam last month, i had a dream that she was a mossad agent luring me to a "honey trap" (like the way the israelis used a young woman as bait to kidnap mordecai vanunu in rome, after he had exposed details of their nuclear weapons program to the world press).

in my dream, i asked her about it, and she admitted yes, the authorities were coming to get me -- but in the dream she had some remorse and helped me escape. anyway that afternoon after the dream, pani told me she *was* a mossad agent. she was just kidding, but i was thinking wow that's weird. like, why mossad? she's a polish catholic! there were a couple other times when she said something indicating that she knew thing x or y about me which i had never told her, but i didn't think much of it. then the other day she and i were walking down the street by the pompidou center, and we were approached by this indian guy, one of the freelance portrait artists you see around parisian tourist-spots. this guy nodded to pani and said "dzen dobre" to her -- then turned to me and started talking to me in english. now i'm not surprised that i can be easily pegged as an english-speaking tourist. but i was really confused as to how this guy knew that pani was polish. fortunately i haven't got to the point of actually being paranoid that i'm being tracked by secret agents. but stuff like this makes me go "hmm", mostly cuz if i remmeber properly i'm right around the age when our grandma started to go schizo. <<

pani and i went to paris.

went there last monday afternoon 14 april. i returned yesterday 18. pani is staying there at least through easter, possibly returning to amsterdam sometime next week.

we stayed in a town called sceaux, with the family r, auntie malgorzata (from sanok) and her husband christophe who is french, and their son and three daughters. paulina is almost 16 and wears a lot of makeup. franosz (francois) is like 14 and into science. mathilda (matoh?) is older like 11 but small so she looks 8. emma is like maybe 6, 7. the two younger girls hang on pani, they adore having her in the house.

the house is big. seems even bigger because the garden in back rolls down a hill. counting the attic and basement it's five levels i guess. the property was divided just as they bought it, and a guy is building a new house next door, cinderblock rising unpleasantly in view. they want a tromp l'oeille or something to hide it.

i consult the map and my notebook to try and reconstruct details of that trip now.

we were in car 15 of the 1256u thalys train from amsterdam to brussells & paris nord.

a musical three-note sound preceded train-manager announcements. at first the announcements were in dutch, french, and english. below brussels they were in french, dutch and english, then finally just french and maybe english.

got to paris nord just after 6 i think. it was late. you can walk right out to the street from where the train platforms are. to get to the metro you have to go down the rolltrap into this incredible labyrynth. we were looking for RER B,

first RER train was crowded, smelled like people & sweat, had mustard-colored walls. it was rush hour. the ride took almost 30 minutes? maybe less. stations: paris nord, chatelet / les halles, st michel / notre dame, luxembourg, port royal, denfert rochereau (above ground then), cité universitaire, gentilly, la place, arcuell-cachan, bagneux, bourg-la-reine, sceaux. somewhere along the way you pass an aqueduct big on arches stretching across the sky, just like the old roman ones, only it doesn't look so old.

when the doors of the metro / RER trains are about to close, a dual-toned claxon sounds, kinda like a car horn, for several seconds before the doors snap shut.

sceaux is where marie curie lived. it's a kinda upscale fashionable town on a hill, with lots of big nice old houses and some new architecture too here and there. it has a marketplace up the hill in the town center, fresh everything being hawked. very colorful place. the meat and fish market is inside an enclosure.

christophe's family has a castle-like house on an estate somewhere in southern france. it was bought by "kzish's" great great great grandfather in 1819, that was general tarayre of napoleon's army. the local wine is called marcillac. malgorzata loves this red wine the best. i think the place itself is called marcillac-vallon. they make roquefort sheep-cheese there, maybe other stuff too ... and have trouble exporting it to the states because of import duties imposed in a little trade war between usa and france.

one night i got to see christophe giving emma a piano lesson. caring loving guy. loving family. one night it was a full moon, he was being driven crazy by these whooping and screaming laughing hollering girls -- including his wife and pani by the way. seemed like everybody in the house was drunk. then the kids came downstairs again and started eating marshmallows. i'm thinking great, that's really gonna help.

so pani and i went walking around paris on tuesday, wednesday and thursday. i took photos on tuesday and thursday, but left my camera at home on wednesday afternoon.

on tuesday 15 april, we took the RER-B and got off at luxembourg station. 6e arrt. big white word LUXEMBOURG on dark blue. went upstairs to boulevard saint michel, thru the gate and walked around in the jardin du luxembourg. it has rows of giant hedge-like trees trimmed into cubic objects. is that called pleaching? very springtimy. i remembered the term "paris in the spring" and "paris in the the spring." there's a pond in the center facing a palace, palais du luxembourg, in the park there were lots of free-standing gray metal chairs that people sat on eating lunch in the sun or the shade.

from there we went across and up the rue soufflot, passing pani's favorite beer joint (because it has the polish beer and many others) and stopping to buy ten postcards for eur 1.50 in one of the ubiquitous souvenir shops. from the whole length of the street you can see the pantheon a big domed building looming ahead. which has big words saying it's in honor of the great men of the revival of patriotism. this is in the 5e arrt.

walked bore to the right of that and zigzagged down hill on some little side streets. stopped at a little lebanese snack bar to get wraps of falafel "deux falafelllll!" with hummus and something else, she said it was different from turkish style, and the man was nice enough to give us free glasses of tea.

from there we went down and turned right onto rue moufftard. a long sloping street, just slightly bendy enough to not make it look quite so long. rue moufftard starts out with a variety of kinda cool shops (jewelry, scarves, lots of shoes) and little restaurants and cafes. then further down it turns into a produce market with stalls of fruits veg & flowers. a bakery on one corner had big loaves of olive bread all chewy and stretchy when we pulled off bites of it.

at the bottom of that street we were at a big square square st medard with the st medard church on our left.. we looked at maps, then went left past the green, turned left back uphill on rue monge. at some point turned onto something like rue des ecoles. a bit of windowshopping. stopped and bought some cheap 2nd hand cds at a place with listening stations in the window which had easter eggs mounted on the headphones. later we stopped at another spot and bought some cheap books, notably a couple showing scriptural illuminations from medieval europe. we ended up near a big building of sorbonne university.

crossing back and going up the hill on a little narrow street, we stopped at a bar across from a cinema, restaurant "le reflet" it was called. we stopped there because pani said she liked the music coming out the door -- a female vocalist i can't identify, kinda soft and jazzy almost. so we went in and had a couple beers "deux pressions" ? and pani looked at her books and perused the classified ads in the english-language expat magazine called "fusac". i perused the scarlet vynil-covered book she had borrowed -- titled "plan de paris per arrondissement" in fancy "parisian" font reminiscent of art nouveau or something. i remember thinking that parisian typefaces in general seem kinda jubilant and fun-loving for some 100-year-old reason. in the bar i heard that song again, "i want a girl with a short skirt and a long jacket." something in our conversation prompted me to write in my notebook: "live now! die later!"

i noted a man sitting at the bar in a green gray suit, pink shirt, with his tie thrown over his left shoulder, reading a newspaper-on-a-stick (from the bar) having just re-lit his pipe with a match. the tables were black. the floor dark gray. lots of faux theater lighting in a grid overhead. gray light outside. in paris some of the streets are pretty narrow so they're shady all the time.

back down the hill and rue des ecoles leads back to blvd st michel.

saw old ruin of something. followed that to place st michel with a fountain which she says people use as a meeting point. there's a metro station there. she says there was a fire in the station last year and it's been closed for awhile, but i think it's open again or opening soon.

walked down a narrow street rue st andre des arts. i guess that's back in the 6th. the setting sun cast long shadows right in line with the street at that moment, peds silhouetted coming toward us. couldn't find whatever she was looking for, so we turned back through the place st michel and crossed a big street quai st michel, we saw the cathedral of notre dame way off to our right. continued across the bridge onto blvd du palais. walked by a big huge dark spiky old building -- palais de justice -- including something called the conciergerie. a few minutes, then we crossed the river again and this time it was wider. i hadn't realized we were on an island.

now we were on the right bank of the river i guess. blvd du palais becomes bd de sebastopol. crossed the rue de rivoli. we somehow got down a cool street with lots of food stands including many crepe stands, and guys vocally trying to persuade people to buy from them. she said we were near "les halles" which sounds like le alle. this is in the 1e (first) arrt.

but then we turned and went to the centre pompidou, which is in the fourth. where an ind guy persuaded me to let him draw a stupid caricature of me. originally i said i'd give him 15 euros to let me draw HIS picture, but he wouldn't take money unless he drew me, so we were running late by the time we went home for dinner. the spooky thing about that was that intiially the guy instantly addressed pani "jen dobre" as if he knew she was polish, and then started talking to me in english. like as if he knew who we were.

we walked back to les halles, which has a building complex called "forum des halles" and there was an RER station there from which we could get back to sceaux. and that was it for tuesday.

on afternoon of wednesday 16 april 03 (after visiting the produce market in sceaux) ... i made a choice NOT to bring my camera. we got off at ?? maybe the RER station st michel/notre dame, and walked up the right bank to notre dame cathedral itself, and pani took shots of people crowding around it. people waiting in line to go up and visit the gallery overlooking the city from kinda high up. sunny, tourist stands and snack vendor carts. then walked across a different bridge, to pont d'arcole, to the big hotel de ville, which isn't a hotel, it's the town hall.

then we kept going futher and further until we found this european house of photography --the maison europëene de la photographie, ville de paris ... where there was a four-stories exhibit of this guy françois-marie banier. ? who had writing all over his photographs. my favorite shot was "woman with pipe" taken in rio.

i noted that several times that day i'd been seeing people walking with a baguette under their arm. even in the museum there was one such.

then from there i feel like we got lost, walked through a sorta jewish and gay section with lots of dark little twisty streets and some fashionable apparrel shops mostly men's (she called it "sweet boy" fashion cuz it seemed kinda gay). then we turned east and walked for quite a while, along something i think was rue des francs bourgeois, and ended up in this surrounded park, place des vosges, pointy buildings on all sides. then we exited through a tunnel on the south side of that, walked down a quiet street rue de birage, turned left onto a bigger noisy street rue saint antoine, which leads to place bastille -- with a big monument spike and a new opera in the background, and stubby pleachy trees overhead on the corner. and took a sleek futuristic metro line 1 from bastille back to chatelet, reprocess your ticket, down to RER station chatelet / les halles and then home.

some of the metro trains are quite new, some are more medium-new like the RER trains i experienced. the metros generally have more poles to hold onto than in amsterdam. and they have extra foldup seats right by the sliding doors. my favorite metro was not too old, not too new, but had the windows open so we were flying into a breeze. different trains seem to have different color interiors though. i dunno if it has to do with what line it is or not. pani also says line 14 is new and fully automated, no driver. kinda spooky. it goes to a big library.

early afternoon on thursday 17 april 03, we took the RER-B from sceaux to gare du nord, then switched to metro line 4 direction clignancourt, just one stop i guess, i think we got off at barbès rochechouart ... at the foot of montmarte ... whatever, this was the area full of fabric stores (tissus) ... we hoofed it up some steps to a level where there was a cafe, had one beer and left cuz pani was pissed off at the menu choices. hoofed some more, up a windy garden path, to the foot of sacre coeurs, then up more steps to the church and around to the top of montemarte ... we walked around. stopped in a cafe on a corner, it was called let petit creux i think. stayed there for a couple hours at least. had beers, lunch (i had hotdogs weirdly gratineed on part of a baguette, she had salade niçoise) ... then coffee (she complained to me that her supposed cappucino was really a "viennoise" because of the whipped cream, whereas my café au lait "encore un café au lait!" seemed more like a trad cap) ... and then a chocolate crepe. the fellas were making crepes on a big hot black thing, stacking them and slathering them to order. i think the choc ones were just slathered with plain old nutella. montmarte felt like some kinda island resort to me, separate from paris.

then a bit more walking around, to a place downhill at the corner of rue azais and rue st eleuthere, where there's a view of rooftops and tour eiffel in the distance, then back up the hill to the square and left to the other adjacent square "place du tertres"? where all these artists are selling their paintings. we walked into a very old church smaller than sacre coeur and kinda next to it. that's called st pierre de montmarte. the stained glass light smears on the browned stone column inside. candles to buy and light up under your favorite saint statue on the wall. pani enters, dips her hand in the water, crosses herself at the foot of the aisle, then kneels for a few seconds bowing her head and man she really means it.

she decided instead of trying to find the polish church elsewhere in town, to go to mass right there at 730 pm. a man there when she asked had told her "we'll be waiting for you."

i walked around shooting more fotos. again i noticed the lively exuberant lettering on a lot of signs. "les coulisses" scrambling up a wall over blue awnings. "espace montmarte - salvador dali" ... i guess dali was here at some point. i went down one flight of stairs on the north side, past where some filmmakers were wrapping a scene and taking some last minute sound of a woman screaming, PA at the bottom of the stairs asking folks to be quiet when they went up cuz they were recording sound. around and up the hill back to the front of the big church. i got some photos of sacre coeur domed pink sunsetty and flanked by two green equestrian dudes, both looking kinda triumphant, one was pointing his sword up, the other pointing it down. everybody trying to stay out of each other's snapshots. back up to the square at st pierre .... then i turned left down a little narrow rue cortot, passed a building calling itself musee de montmarte, but it looked like it must have been closed years ago. maybe not. parisians seem to cherish their distressed plaster and ancient paint jobs, that's one of my favorite things about the joint. this street led downhill to a place with a pink building, i think it said maison rose or something. with a view downhill into the more north city. then i turned left and went back uphill and turned left again onto a narrow alley called rue st rustique, which led me back behind some nightclubs with pianos playing, and on up to the square.in front of st pierre.

american and british and italian tourists, who else i dunno, lots of high school kids, maybe catholic school kids on a trip? their tour guide explained to them what would be on the dinner menu when they came gathering outside st pierre where i was waiting for pani. then i was looking over at a house a couple blocks away, with a roof deck. a view of this square, whole montmarte and i guess all of paris. can i move in? hmm.

pani emerged close to 9 pm, she said the mass there was beautiful, the music and the whole procedure was great, the priests were going around washing people's feet in honor of the last supper.

then we went down a really long staircase alongside the funiculaire. and came out on a bd de rochechouart, that leads to pigalle, but i had no interest in going to pigalle (where the moulin rouge is) so we went on and found a tourist shop that had the map i needed.

then we went to the metro station anvers, took line M2 (interior light gray with ultrabrite fluorescents, passing stations with white tiles, barrel-vaulted tunnels) to charles de gaulle étoile ... came upstairs and we're right by the arc d'triomphe. never did figure out how you cross the street by that big arch, but it must be possible cuz there were people standing there under it.

i made notes, quoting pani as saying (wrt baby-naming rules in poland) "no, you cannot name your child 'laundry detergent.'" ... and noted that :the street's not there any more, she remembers it from a different paris." did a lot of thinking about universe jumping and alternate reality.

took some more snaps while walking east again along the avenue des champs elysees. a huge full moon was rising right at the end of it near the big spike at place de concorde. but we didn't want to walk all the way there, so we turned back and got on a metro (maybe it was clemenceau station) back to saint michel area, now i'm lost, can't remember what street, walked up to a sushi restaurant on a street called rue monsieur-le-prince with lots of japanese restaurants on it. we stopped at a place called, get this, japorama, and had some makis.

then somehow we walked to blvd st michel and got back on that same street that leads uphill to the pantheon, had a beer at that place, i tried the polish beer "zywiec." she had a hoegaarden fruity beer or some kind of lambic maybe. she was prattling about how she was "absolutely fascinated by this monastic reality which is always moving and touching." who knows what she was on about. anyway it was getting to be midnight and she wanted to fast during good friday (rather than be drinking), so we made it a quick one, then got to luxembourg station and hightailed it back to sceaux.

good friday morning she accompanied me to gare du nord again, i got a bad capuccino, she had bad herbal tea, then we had hugs and i got on the train back to amsterdam. after the first three hours my right knee started hurting, by the time we finally got to CS i was in knee agony. as soon as i got off my knee was fine again, the pain didn't linger. first thing off the train i went to burger king without even leaving the station and ordered a BK big double something.